To Be or Not to Be

I’m going to decide in this moment to love.
I’m going to decide in this moment that
No single man will break my heart,
He is prepared to receive me into his arms.

I am going to decide that I am missing
Those arms because I have not found them yet.
I am going to decide never to give up the hope
That is a terror deep in my heart.

I am going to decide that my broken heart
Is a temptation to despair of human goodness.
I am going to decide that this spidery grasp
Is that of someone attempting to shatter Love.

I am going to decide never to give in.
I am going to decide, in a moment,
Not to disbelieve, Not to succumb to longing,
I am going to decide, I am going to decide.

I promise I am going to decide,
Any Minute,
When I have some strength,
I am going to decide,
To love,
To Hope,
To Be.