The Fight

There’s so much to be said today,
It’s like my heart might explode.
Like I’m wandering in that space again
Waiting to unload.

There’s goblins and witches
And demons and worse
Clawing at my insides
Drowning me, curse

But I find comfort in the glittering night
Of Gatsby’s holy green light,
The hope that he somehow held onto
While despair chants, so young and beautiful

Like, I never got to be, or maybe not for long
Some of us grow up to fast to sing
Neurotic as children that’s how my best friend says
We hurt too soon, lost our innocence

and now There’s goblins and witches
And demons and worse
Clawing at my insides
Drowning me, curse

Drowning the breaths that are meant to destroy them
Clawing at the life that might surpass them
Demons begging me to turn back from the light
Dragging my head with witch and goblin grip
And I can’t find my way out,
And I can’t survive,
Without someone Insanely powerful
On my side

because there’s goblins and witches

And demons and worse
Clawing at my insides
Drowning me, curse

And I’m awake tonight in the early morning hour
Clawing at the dark
Two sides of me, one that cries this hour, begs that I sleep
Sleep, Sleep, Give in, Sleep.

A beat that solidly ticks away the life I wanted to live
Cutting in, creating a grieving heart with every moment,
I know I can’t survive if it keeps cutting this deep
I won’t breathe anymore soon, if I still can’t see

Humans can take so much more than they think
Like a press that never,ever buckles down,
Those horrifying machines that they crush diamonds in,
But everyone says they wouldn’t be diamonds without them.

But we all imagine the pain that diamond bleeds out in clear
Screams that life was never even close
How could I have even kept on going?
If everywhere around there was death and 

(4x)There’s goblins and witches
And demons and worse
Clawing at my insides
Drowning me, curse