Jonah

Have you ever thought about checking yourself into a mental institution?
Felt like you were looking into a mirror on the backside of your brain
And that all you found was the potential for terror and not to mention, horror-
Your own ability to destroy everything good in your own life?

I think the most horrifying moment in life is that one-
When you realize you can actually do something wrong.
When you find out everything is NOT okay, because you could be what’s wrong with it,
Then you know you would never forgive yourself for becoming your own worst.

Everything takes on a new frightening veneer of what you could almost ruin for everyone
If you breathed wrong, or longed wrong, or looked wrong, for just one second
And everything you do wrong isn’t even your fault, but you did it,
Again and again, until the world stopped turning and they threw you off to save thermselves.