Yes, The World Needs God, But Not Like That

A couple of weeks ago, there was a shooting in Texas that just devastated me. A couple days before I watched The Hate You Give, which rocked me as well. Both of these events are on the heels of, and preceding so many horrible tragedies and fearful events happening all over they world lately. I find myself desperate for God’s love to be present in … Continue reading Yes, The World Needs God, But Not Like That

Ugly Cry, or, My Awakening: The Tension Between Cultivating Joy and Feeling Heard

Lately, I have been feeling like a ping pong ball in my own head. I’m learning a lot about a lot of things, but the problem is they all seem to contradict each other. I am learning how to cultivate joy, but I am also learning how to give myself space to be sad, I am learning about how to let good things in, and … Continue reading Ugly Cry, or, My Awakening: The Tension Between Cultivating Joy and Feeling Heard

The Power of Mourning Together: Intimacy after Trauma

Recently, I went through a period where I was thinking about my miscarriages a lot. I had made a short film about Emma, and I was grieving some other people who had died, and I had to work through some leftover anger at God for what happened with her. It is very hard for my husband when I talk about miscarriages, especially Emma. He copes … Continue reading The Power of Mourning Together: Intimacy after Trauma

Embrace Your Cross

“Eloi, Eloi, Lama Sabbactani My God, My God, why have you abandoned me?” My God, My God, why did you abandon me? I gave You everything. No matter how hard everything was. I gave You my childhood. I gave you the feeling of being invincible that I never got to feel. I gave You my obedience that destroyed my dreams, and my spirit for years. … Continue reading Embrace Your Cross

For David and Karly <3

She did not look like anyone I had seen before. There was a red shape on her face that terrified me. I thought then that it was because I thought she was ugly, and I was so ashamed that I never talked to her. I think now, that it was because it scared me. I didn’t know what could cause something like that and I … Continue reading For David and Karly ❤