Sunset

I’m getting sloshed tonight
The kind of drunk that makes you forget,
And your girlfriends keep you from falling over,
And your hipster hat gets blue martinis on it.

I’m gonna f*** these fears finally
And for the first time feel alive
I’m going to Chicago, going for the city lights,
And there I’m gonna kiss a guy

That guy I’ve been wanting to kiss for so long,
He is going to make it too,
He’s going to hold me round the waist
And close to him and I’ll pull him even closer.

Until after years of waiting our lips meet,
And now in a consummate waste of sexual energy,
I’ll ruin all we ever had in a blissful one night union
Of two lost souls in a night made by one.

I’m sorry for how badly I want to ruin everything,
My heart, my soul, the world
It’s like I could breathe if just for a moment,
The pain I have was real.

Monologue

This is from a one act I am finishing up for a competition here. 🙂

I’ve never cursed before. I never thought I could…but I can’t go on. Not like this. I’m like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde’s twin sister, and my brain’s a fucking playground for you to bleed in. I can never understand how you can hate me so much for writing things that are so dark, when the world is such a cavernous waste. Nietzsche said as much, maybe he believed God was dead because his world couldn’t be one with a God. Maybe that’s exactly the curse Camus and Byron went through. There’s a cave all around closing in in the black. Socrates is mocking us for hiding inside, but there is sulfur coming from the walls, and we know we won’t be able to breathe again if we straighten out. He even said there were chains holding us to the wall, but does he fucking loose them? He looks at us and asks why we don’t move, while we’re drowning in our own curses….I’m not even talking about Socrates anymore. What about the God that loves us? Oh so much. So much He died for us? What if He didn’t die for us. What if He died because this world is such a Godforsaken bad place. Maybe He died to show us everything we aren’t now that He’s gone because we taunted Him away. We mocked Him and now He mocks us in our chains. Watch that sulfur come for you and die you stupid earthly beings. Watch that sulfur come and….(gasps for air) What if that’s all we’ve got left? 

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