The Paradox of Being Grateful When Things are Hard

I find myself oscillating between two extremes fairly often. One is that I am struggling and I am frustrated that things aren’t getting better. The second is that I feel like maybe my struggle is not actually that bad, so I’m actually just a horribly ungrateful person who doesn’t deserve to live. Okay, that’s extreme, but there are some days it feels pretty intense. I … Continue reading The Paradox of Being Grateful When Things are Hard

The Tension Between Gratitude and Desire

Lately I’ve been having a struggle that seems so stupid to me sometimes, but other times it is enough to paralyze me with anxiety. I have been struggling with being grateful for what I have when I want more. I think maybe I feel like it is inherently ungrateful to want things. The reason I feel silly about it sometimes is that some of the … Continue reading The Tension Between Gratitude and Desire

Ash Wednesday:What Religious Abuse looks like Ten Years Later

I hate going back to what happened to make me struggle with things. Those of you who know me are probably rolling your eyes. I don’t blame you, because no matter how much I don’t want to talk about it, I do it often. Im still trying to figure out how to exist in a world that seems easier to other people than it is … Continue reading Ash Wednesday:What Religious Abuse looks like Ten Years Later

What my Miscarriage Taught me About Being Christian

Rachel Hollis said, “Everything does NOT happen for a reason, but you can FIND a meaning in anything.” My first miscarriage is the first thing that came to mind. Every time I read “everything happens for a reason,” my heart hardens and grows colder, the hair on the back of my neck stands up, and I become a little bit nauseous. Why? You ask. If … Continue reading What my Miscarriage Taught me About Being Christian

The Thing That Still Bugs Me: A Petty Nun

My experience teaching at John Paul II High School was a nightmare. It was so bad that I am quite literally writing a book on how I almost lost my faith teaching there. However, the thing that bugs me most though seems so silly, I shake my head at myself everytime I think about, but I can never shake the grief I feel about it. … Continue reading The Thing That Still Bugs Me: A Petty Nun