Quarantine. For some of you it’s a dirty word. For some it’s despair. For some it’s loss and grief incomparable. For me? It’s life. For me, it was hope. For me, it was a home With incandescent joy and bliss.
PEACEWEAVER intro
This lent, I had another identity crisis. I know, I know, every lent this happens right? Well, I ended up signing my life away that I would no longer do yoga and instead teach an alternative. Ironically, everytime I tried to send the papers, something went wrong. Every. Single. Time. Finally I sent them. You... Continue Reading →
Original Sin
When I gave birth the third time, Everyone told me what a perfect birth it was. They marveled at how calm and "unafraid" I was, How I "roared" my baby earthside. I've ached in that lie for a while now, Lost in their awe and my own despair. What they didn't know is that While... Continue Reading →
The Hierarchy of Suffering
This meme has been going around like wildfire lately. It expresses the common idea that the way not to judge others for their struggles is to think that maybe they are not as strong as you are. On the surface, the intention is great. The idea is to encourage people not to judge others' suffering.... Continue Reading →
I’m not LGBTQ, but I don’t Belong Either
https://www.usatoday.com/story/opinion/voices/2019/08/18/churches-need-less-tradition-more-flexibility-welcome-teens-column/2011731001/ This article and others like it have been posted and talked about on my online and in person Catholic groups over and over again. There's always a couple of people kindly talking about it and then the avalanche of more traditional Catholics who start mocking the author and saying, "Oh they just want the... Continue Reading →
Yes, The World Needs God, But Not Like That
A couple of weeks ago, there was a shooting in Texas that just devastated me. A couple days before I watched The Hate You Give, which rocked me as well. Both of these events are on the heels of, and preceding so many horrible tragedies and fearful events happening all over they world lately. I... Continue Reading →
5 Steps to Take When the Baby Steps Seem Too Big
This week, I wanted to give up on Dave Ramsey so bad. I was so done and hopeless feeling I wanted to pull out the credit card and just spend it all. I'm a free spirit and spending as little as possible to put as much as possible towards debt and towards our future needs... Continue Reading →
Jaded
Ever since I grew to adulthood, I hear the echoes of everyone who told me, "That's not real. That's a fantasy." Most of the time, I silence them With a wave of the hand, And maybe a deep breath, But then, Sometimes, a wave of grief comes, My heart begins to ask, "Were they right?... Continue Reading →
The Beauty of the Crucifixion
My entire life I have struggled with the Crucifixion. I could never wrap my mind around God allowing His Son to go through something like that. To be honest, I don't see that fully going away anytime soon, the problem of evil is my biggest hang up in life, and even when I find an... Continue Reading →
Ugly Cry, or, My Awakening: The Tension Between Cultivating Joy and Feeling Heard
Lately, I have been feeling like a ping pong ball in my own head. I'm learning a lot about a lot of things, but the problem is they all seem to contradict each other. I am learning how to cultivate joy, but I am also learning how to give myself space to be sad, I... Continue Reading →