The Hate U Give Little Infants Fucks Everyone. -Tupac Last night, I tried to watch The Hate U Give, the emotional true story of a black girl who watches her friend get killed by a police officer. Later, she is called to testify, but I haven't gotten that far, because I had to take a... Continue Reading →
Depression and The Boundaries Book
I started to read a book called "Boundaries" a couple of months ago. I had bought it a long time before that, but I hadn't read it. I was nervous because I have talked to several people who were very callous and used this book as their excuse, but I have also talked to others... Continue Reading →
Love First
I am currently reading a book about Boundaries that threw me for a loop and shut me down a little bit. I started to believe that maybe everything I ever said was wrong and everything I have ever believed is ridiculous. It discusses that it is ok to set boundaries and say "this is ok"... Continue Reading →
Please Stop Choosing Sides
Lately, my newsfeed has been inundated with posts screaming, "YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE A SIDE." Of course, half the time the premise also includes condescending language about how if you don't choose a side, you are choosing the wrong side, and there is something wrong with you. I am so sick of this. Let me... Continue Reading →
I Need to Calm Down: Weight Loss Angry Day
I am so angry. This week I hopped on the scale to see that I had gained pretty much all of the weight I had lost back. Seriously?? After all of this time? What was the point of any of it if I'm back at this? My BMI was back up by a full point,... Continue Reading →
Planning for the Future: Even When All You Have Feels like Nothing
All day I've been cursing at myself about how we haven't been planning for the future. "We had one good paycheck and we used it all up. We should have saved every penny for the future. This is God punishing us because we messed up again." Over and over again I thought of all of... Continue Reading →
Jaded
Ever since I grew to adulthood, I hear the echoes of everyone who told me, "That's not real. That's a fantasy." Most of the time, I silence them With a wave of the hand, And maybe a deep breath, But then, Sometimes, a wave of grief comes, My heart begins to ask, "Were they right?... Continue Reading →
Opportunity Cost
The hardest lesson I learned while doing Dave Ramsey has to have been his brief mention of "Opportunity Cost." He mentioned it as if it was a given, but ever since then I have been hung up on it, struggling with what it means. Basically, opportunity cost means that when you spend your money on... Continue Reading →
Finding Freedom in Motherhood
When I became a mom, I was terrified. I thought this meant I had to be into legos, Lincoln logs, and other little people toys and I was going to have to give up on everything I actually do love. The problem with this that a lot of people don't have is that I wasn't... Continue Reading →
The Beauty of the Crucifixion
My entire life I have struggled with the Crucifixion. I could never wrap my mind around God allowing His Son to go through something like that. To be honest, I don't see that fully going away anytime soon, the problem of evil is my biggest hang up in life, and even when I find an... Continue Reading →