The Associate Pastor’s Tirade

Part I We barrelled into Church a motley crue, composed of one shoeless screaming to be shirtless, who wanted to run and climb. Hung from the other arm was one whose Only desire was to scream and run, but Who had cried out "I want Jesus" in the parking lot. I came for the Living... Continue Reading →

Please Don’t Let Me Die

That song is playing agan The one I play to praise when I'm afraid I won't make it this time. "Even when it hurts" I pray again with beads Clutched in my hand Like a holy card or nun Oh, God, Please don't let me die. It's another one of those nights, I don't know... Continue Reading →

When Did I Stop Writing Poetry?

When did I stop writing poetry? Was it when I told you who I was? Was it when this place online Became a place in your face Without somewhere to hide mine? When did I start preaching Like so many talking heads Doing the things I don't do Yet learned to, but still don't Understand... Continue Reading →

Stay: For those in Isolation

Dear Friend, You are lonely tonight.  When the rest of us cheered Delighted at time away, Your heart quaked in fear. You were faced with isolation, Alone with yourself, You are haunted by your demons.  I have fought that dark fight  When night seems endless I begged for release and screamed While no one could... Continue Reading →

Recoil

Here’s a poem inspired by a scrupulousity spiral yesterday Recoil I read a meditationAnd it said,“Picture yourselfAmong the crowdThat crucified Jesus.A few Easters agoI cringedWhen the Gospel instructed,[Crowd speaks]Crucify Him.I trembled. In the name of guiltWe daydream we areMurderers of GodThe worst sinners we could beBut I am not evil.I spent my entire lifeTrying not... Continue Reading →

Original Sin

When I gave birth the third time, Everyone told me what a perfect birth it was. They marveled at how calm and "unafraid" I was, How I "roared" my baby earthside. I've ached in that lie for a while now, Lost in their awe and my own despair. What they didn't know is that While... Continue Reading →

A Good Friday Style Easter

This Easter was a hard one for me so far. On Friday, I saw a headline out of the corner of my eye, "When Easter feels like Good Friday." I had a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. As I crawled through lent this year, my refrain was, Easter is almost here, Easter... Continue Reading →

The Silence

For the last few weeks, I've barely posted on here. I felt guilty and I insulted myself for it, but it wasn't until tonight that I realized what I was doing. I have a bad habit of getting too caught up in what everyone else thinks about me. We have all heard that one, I... Continue Reading →

My Worst Nightmare

I had every writers worst nightmare happen to me today. I got a good look at everything I don't have. I don't have writing credits, I don't have many connections, I don't have time, I don't have so many things it hurts. I posted my own rec post, but I don't know that it's really... Continue Reading →

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