As many of you know, we are doing Dave Ramsey baby steps. We are working so hard, and definitely struggling at this point. What has brought me a lot of hope in our movement forward is turning every single one of my struggles into a hope for the future. In that vein, I thought I... Continue Reading →
The Tension Between Gratitude and Desire
Lately I've been having a struggle that seems so stupid to me sometimes, but other times it is enough to paralyze me with anxiety. I have been struggling with being grateful for what I have when I want more. I think maybe I feel like it is inherently ungrateful to want things. The reason I... Continue Reading →
Ash Wednesday:What Religious Abuse looks like Ten Years Later
I hate going back to what happened to make me struggle with things. Those of you who know me are probably rolling your eyes. I don't blame you, because no matter how much I don't want to talk about it, I do it often. Im still trying to figure out how to exist in a... Continue Reading →
Fiction: Prologue
You guys, I just wrote this, and I am so proud of it. I'm going to be working it into a book, and I am really really excited for it. A few months after my first miscarriage, I started having a burning desire to have a threesome. My husband and I were struggling with intimacy... Continue Reading →
What my Miscarriage Taught me About Being Christian
Rachel Hollis said, "Everything does NOT happen for a reason, but you can FIND a meaning in anything." My first miscarriage is the first thing that came to mind. Every time I read "everything happens for a reason," my heart hardens and grows colder, the hair on the back of my neck stands up, and... Continue Reading →
#Checkyourprivilege
The Church was on my list of parishes to check out anyway, so when I realized it had the only Mass time that would work for me today, I hurried to the car. I went back and forth the whole drive over whether it was crazy of me to skip Mass at our home parish,... Continue Reading →
What the New York Abortion Bill Meant to Me
When I found out I was pregnant with Emma, my husband walked away from me, went upstairs and blared slipknot. I trembled downstairs in fear. When I was pregnant with Emma, my husband and I fought every single day. These were not little, meaningless spats. They were screaming arguments, "How are we going to pay... Continue Reading →
Losing My Virginity
Losing my Virginity “About an hour after the first time I had sex, I woke up in a cold sweat. I was so nauseous I thought I was going to be sick, and I couldn't breathe. I laid in a dark hotel room thinking I was going to die. I remember first walking into the... Continue Reading →
Searching for a Home
Today, I got up all bright and peppy excited for a day of submitting my work. I labored for hours over my lists of places to submit and realized I don't know where I fit. I've published some amazing stuff in mediocre ways, and I have work I'm proud of that no one has seen.... Continue Reading →
A Change?
What if I wrote something different? Like if I just wrote what I'm thinking Instead of getting all fancy schmancy With my flourishes from college.