Recently, I went through a period where I was thinking about my miscarriages a lot. I had made a short film about Emma, and I was grieving some other people who had died, and I had to work through some leftover anger at God for what happened with her. It is very hard for my... Continue Reading →
Embrace Your Cross
"Eloi, Eloi, Lama Sabbactani My God, My God, why have you abandoned me?" My God, My God, why did you abandon me? I gave You everything. No matter how hard everything was. I gave You my childhood. I gave you the feeling of being invincible that I never got to feel. I gave You my... Continue Reading →
Prayer of the publican
Dear Jesus, I have failed you time and time again. I have lost all hope that I could be your promised one. I want to believe that you could still use me, but I don’t know how. I mess up all the time, and in ways that have such huge consequences. God, money won’t fill... Continue Reading →
Give Like no one else: Stay at Home Moms
As many of you know, we are doing Dave Ramsey baby steps. We are working so hard, and definitely struggling at this point. What has brought me a lot of hope in our movement forward is turning every single one of my struggles into a hope for the future. In that vein, I thought I... Continue Reading →
The Tension Between Gratitude and Desire
Lately I've been having a struggle that seems so stupid to me sometimes, but other times it is enough to paralyze me with anxiety. I have been struggling with being grateful for what I have when I want more. I think maybe I feel like it is inherently ungrateful to want things. The reason I... Continue Reading →
Ash Wednesday:What Religious Abuse looks like Ten Years Later
I hate going back to what happened to make me struggle with things. Those of you who know me are probably rolling your eyes. I don't blame you, because no matter how much I don't want to talk about it, I do it often. Im still trying to figure out how to exist in a... Continue Reading →
What my Miscarriage Taught me About Being Christian
Rachel Hollis said, "Everything does NOT happen for a reason, but you can FIND a meaning in anything." My first miscarriage is the first thing that came to mind. Every time I read "everything happens for a reason," my heart hardens and grows colder, the hair on the back of my neck stands up, and... Continue Reading →
#Checkyourprivilege
The Church was on my list of parishes to check out anyway, so when I realized it had the only Mass time that would work for me today, I hurried to the car. I went back and forth the whole drive over whether it was crazy of me to skip Mass at our home parish,... Continue Reading →
Lea Michele: What I wanted to say to you back then
Lea Michele, I haven't forgotten you. For years I have had the image of you plastered in my mind from the tabloids after you found out Cory Monteith had died. My heart bled for you. There was one that talked about what he said to you in his last voicemail. It struck me as cruel... Continue Reading →
What the New York Abortion Bill Meant to Me
When I found out I was pregnant with Emma, my husband walked away from me, went upstairs and blared slipknot. I trembled downstairs in fear. When I was pregnant with Emma, my husband and I fought every single day. These were not little, meaningless spats. They were screaming arguments, "How are we going to pay... Continue Reading →
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