Today, I got up all bright and peppy excited for a day of submitting my work. I labored for hours over my lists of places to submit and realized I don't know where I fit. I've published some amazing stuff in mediocre ways, and I have work I'm proud of that no one has seen.... Continue Reading →
Sabotage
It's crazy to me how promptly my psyche starts to sabotage any amount of success I experience. I self-published a book last night, and almost immediately the chorus began. "You just self-published, that doesn't mean anything, no one will ever read it anyway." I even started feeling like I was ripping people off who decided... Continue Reading →
Reaching out
so, a couple days ago I finally reached out to a yoga teacher who I really thought might be able to help me figure out how to take the next step in feeling better. She works with pregnant women and I was told she could relate to the miscarriage and stuff. So I finally wrote... Continue Reading →
Permission
If artists are prophets, Is it ok if I speak?
Living Faith-The Exciting Way
Tonight I told the Youth Group that I am leaving to go to LA. I'm not going to lie it was pretty hard. I would have chickened out if it weren't for an amazing homily by the Deacon about how important it is to do God's Will and don't look back. (See bottom of the... Continue Reading →
9000 and 100
The numbers whenever I watch something like this just blow my mind.8000-9000 square feet.....isn't that more than last year.100 homes...one hundred.And it's not containedSo much is safe, it's like worry is moot,Why be worried everyone is fine...Don't be sadBut everything is NOT fine.Those numbers. Maybe its self-absorption to actually BE upset,Selfish to worry about a... Continue Reading →
Writing to Write
The pen hits paper. Metaphorically. No one uses paper and pen anymore. I start speaking innermost thoughts, no feelings...no, I start painting my inner landscape outside of my body. The sadness of one day becomes a vicarious violent jaunt across a blood red sky. The joy of another becomes a happiness medley, a fogue of... Continue Reading →
The One Who Got Away
Well, it's been a while since I've come here.There's a new flesh breathing in my bones wall,Oxidizing in slow denial of fearAsphyxiating when it reaches me.He called answering my silent prayers,Words I couldn't even utter aloud,And I cannot even write now or dare To hope like what's in me wants me to do.He's alive in me again, breathing,Breathing the... Continue Reading →
Somehow now I can't read what once was love, The pages that evoked a gasp from me, Like they were sent to my heart from above, Kindling fire by which all men could see. Now I begin with ashen heart of stone And ask to hear one truth that I have not, That I may... Continue Reading →
If…Maybe?
I can't write right now, in this bleak time, When so many are unhelped and dying. While we watch as the world will-falls to shit, Can I believe God's got an offering? What if I did and suddenly He came, Holding everything I've ever dreamed of Reaching it forward, and without blame, Watching me take... Continue Reading →
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