I'm on vacation right now. One week in my true home- the college I attended far too long ago. The stresses, anxiety, depression are crumbling away and starting to leave me an actual human being again. I can breathe. I believe in joy. I believe in life, in God again, in beauty. In everything that... Continue Reading →
Ive never been an angry person. In fact, for most of my life I never got angry no matter what anyone did to me- just hurt or maybe upset but never angry. Now last night I caught myself calming myself down at work by imagining different ways to kill the person who made me mad.... Continue Reading →
I keep seeing all these posts from other women that are supposed to be jabs at "the liberals" for talking about how miserable having lots of kids makes them.(I know I know Stereotype but it's not my stereotype it's theirs!) Instead it just makes me feel like they are showing off how awesome their life... Continue Reading →
Another job rejection today. I asked Wells Fargo for any more job openings because I didn't get the job because there was someone with more experience. The email back said that I need to take another 6 months to gain the background they need. The old cliche, you can't have this job until you get... Continue Reading →
It's Palm Sunday today. Growing up this was a day that even if we were seriously sick you went to Mass anyway. But I am not going to Mass today. I am looking in on myself from the outside in while I sit volunteering at a yoga studio,reflecting on that girl. I know what my mother... Continue Reading →
sometimes there is just nothing to say-When the day wasn't that badAnd good wasn't the name for it eitherSometimes you live the day not dyingAnd that's enough to make it better than okBut not enough to make it great.
so, a couple days ago I finally reached out to a yoga teacher who I really thought might be able to help me figure out how to take the next step in feeling better. She works with pregnant women and I was told she could relate to the miscarriage and stuff. So I finally wrote... Continue Reading →
I painted this one night in the midst of my engagement to my now husband. An engagement which was a special kind of hell in the hells I have endured in my life.That is something I still struggle with is just how awful our engagement was-not him and I-but our colossally controlling and sometimes cruel... Continue Reading →
Yoga is doing something to me. Everytime I come to yoga class something comes alive in me, or maybe it doesn't come alive- maybe it just turns its head ever so slightly, like a sleeping dragon. I have not written here in so long. So much has happened. I moved back in with my parents to... Continue Reading →
Have you ever thought about checking yourself into a mental institution?Felt like you were looking into a mirror on the backside of your brainAnd that all you found was the potential for terror and not to mention, horror-Your own ability to destroy everything good in your own life?I think the most horrifying moment in life... Continue Reading →
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