How do I feel like somehow I still haven't told the truth?Like there's one living being inside of me that isn't quite out?Like he's gnawing, or maybe just sleeping, but definitely inside,Waiting for me to let him out.What would happen if I were to let him out?Would he like a caged animal crawl into each... Continue Reading →
The Fight
There's so much to be said today,It's like my heart might explode.Like I'm wandering in that space againWaiting to unload.There's goblins and witchesAnd demons and worseClawing at my insidesDrowning me, curseBut I find comfort in the glittering nightOf Gatsby's holy green light,The hope that he somehow held ontoWhile despair chants, so young and beautifulLike, I... Continue Reading →
There's too much in my heart now, I feel that muchess coming on, An explosion of emotion denied Emerging to consume me in black pitch I grieve intensely at watching news Other's misfortune tearing me apart, I laugh heartily at silly sitcoms Like they are as funny as they think they are. It always happens,... Continue Reading →
The Simple Things
What if I don't want to write about my life to today?What if I want to write how pretty the green grass is?What if I want to write about how everyone else hatesThe wood paneling in my house, but I think it's pretty groovy?What if I want to write about how the light hits my... Continue Reading →
I have been really praying a lot lately about my life and trying to figure things out, and I realized yesterday that I have been making myself into a victim. I have been putting myself down-violently, blaming my parents, cursing my lack of money, being generally angry at God and the world. And all for... Continue Reading →
Her Own Mistress
She breathed in, nearly spoke,Wrote that she could pray,For just a moment.And then her mistress came back.What do you think you are doing?What is wrong with you?You went to see The Great Gatsby four times?That's stupid.Why do you keep listening to all these singers?Stop playing Lana Del Rey over and over.There's no hope for you... Continue Reading →
Fighting for Every Day
Every once in a while I'll feel like the whole world lights up and suddenly I write pages and pages and I feel like someday I'll make it, but then I blink and it fades away, and then I feel guilty for letting it. And I want to live on the edge, just to be awake.... Continue Reading →
So You Think You Can…?
I am watching So You Think You Can Dance tonight, and so many thoughts are running through my mind. 1. I am such a big idea perfectionist, not OCD about details, but fiercely demanding on myself that I be flawless at everything. Watching today, I started getting sad, because I am not as good a... Continue Reading →
All Good Things Come to An End
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pBo-GL9SRg Reflecting on The Great Gatsby and all it means to me, and I remember how much I always loved this song.
Waiting for the World to End
It's something in the way the lovers looked away,It's something in the way I looked at you,Something in the way we look tonight,And something in who I want to be.It's ineffable, unspeakable, unliveableConfusion about all we are.It's an ache that never goes away,It's the longing to be young and beautiful.It's the regrets of everything that... Continue Reading →
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